Basically saw SPECIALIST consultant for two long hours this am, ( At my house !! - and a Mental (!) Health Nurse too ! - money they are spending on me !! ) She is 100% sure that my Pituitary Gland is pressing on my Frontal Lobal Cortex, which is making me behave irrationally and uncontrollably, psychotically, and well all the lly's that there are !! ! ( She wouldn't have it that I AM PSYCHOTIC and I was upfront and told her I have always loved colouring in and making fart noises with my armpit, among the many other things )
I have MOST of the above - and more because I have Problems to do with Hypothyroidism AND a Traumatised Amgydala Gland causing PTSD
Being sent for my 9th MRI, and appt made to see a neuropsychological therapist and a neurosurgeon and a neuro psychiatrist - ( They apparently are different things !! ) I'm so rare !!!! Lmao, ANYONE WHO KNOWS ME could have told em that !!
So, basically, any AGGRESSIVE OUTBURSTS, Screaming and Shouting, lack of concentration, memory loss, Weight, Eye Sight Loss, lack of patience - blar blar, please understand they ARE NOT ME, ( Ohhh The lack of Patience could well be me ! ) They are due to either a VERY Enlarged Pit - Or the Tumour !! Not sure which yet ! =
Ohhh maybe able to do surgery, going through nose, to remove Pituitary gland ( basically like petrol to engine, without it you shut down n eventually stop ) probably cant be controlled by drugs, as this has not worked before , and may not be able to operate as instability is to dangerous due to the Traumatic Amgdula Gland !, Ohh and if I do have Surgery I could Get Addisons - which is a adrenaline based disorder which is life threatening on its own !!
Hope this sheds light for these that have been asking ???
Ohhhhh and by NO MEANS DO I WANT SYMPATHY ........ Im just telling ya !
CONFIDENCE AND POSITIVITY ALL THE WAY !!
THE BELOW PICTURE - FOR ME - IS VERY POIGNANT - DONT BE LULLED INTO A FALSE SENCE OF SECURITY - I HAVE ONLY JUST BEGUN TO EMBRACE MY BRILLIANTNESS AND UNIQUENESS = BEWARE !!!
( That last 'statement was one I had written for my facebook friends- and I cant see the point in re writing it - when a simple cut and paste will surfice !! Please excuse me !! )
TODAY - WELL - MY ' SYMPTOMS ' GO IN - WELL KINDA ANY WAY THEY WANT - TOTALLY RANDOM !!!
At the moment im on a HIGH - and Went to sleep at 3am - ( after KNOWING that I couldn't carry on as I was beginning to lagh hysterically at different videos on youtube !! ) So - I slept until 6.30am - woke - WIDE AWAKE - had my usuall breakfast of medication - jumped up, made the bed - had a shower - Which Physically hurt - as Raising my arms above my head - hurts my head and causes me to go REALLY giddy - and loose sight and makes my head go all fuzzy = BUT _ Got through that without a scratch, and got dressed - my new Doggy newspaper top today !! - Posted on Twitter, Facebook, Google+ - and then came down to sort kids breakfast - let the dog out - make a coffee and sit down .... Easy !! 7.11am !! Start laughing as I have totally gone ridiculas and NEED TO KEEP GOING - I CANT STOP .....
No arguments this morning - with anyone - so all good - went upstairs - with hoover, Made kids beds, and tidied their rooms - emptied all waste paper baskets, Polished EVERYWHERE - and then set about on the Bathroom - total overhawl = even getting a toothbrush to the taps !! = MUCH BETTER = Hoovered = and then = SORTED = AWWWWWW - LOOKING LOVELY - Now it was 8am !!!
Came downstairs - hovering the stairs as I go = Put kettle on - and hovered the front room - inc the sofas - put all the cushions in their correct spot, yes each individual cushion HAS to go in the right spot - actually on sofas - ( I have a few cushions that are NOT allowed to be used (!) and they go on the back of the sofa - ie - at the VERY TOP = so NO-ONE uses them to distort the pictures - one is a David Tennant Cushion - and the other is of a baby Bulldog ! USE THEM AND SUFFER THE WRATH !! ) ok - then I Polished the .... lol - EVERYTHING THAT STOOD STILL !! = Re-arranged everything so it was back in its PROPER spot - and then I was happy with the front room - ohhhhhh No - Empty the waste Bin ! - done - 8.20am
Now one day while in a hurry
He missed a lady's bin
He hadn't gone but a few yards
When she chased after him
'What game do you think you're playing'
She cried right from the heart
'You've missed me...am I too late'
'No... jump up on the cart'
RANDOM I KNOW - BUT I KINDA LIKED IT !!
Downstairs loo - empty bin, clean everything inc floor - on my hands and knees - - totally scrubbed and perfect - Kitchen - empty bins - ohhh the lot - I did everything and put the washing on - unloaded the dryer and folded everything up - put away - scrubbed table in conservatory - cleaned all of conservatory - re-arranged the shoe rack so it was neat = pmsl - I KNOW - I KNOW ! = and then PHEW = Sorted - I think - COFFEE MADE - and then decided I may as well make the dinner - so - fresh onions - red and yellow peppers, garlic - paprika - sweetcorn - and chicken - Jersey Royals washed and cut and placed in water - DINNER DONE - ANTHEA TURNER - EAT YOUR HEART OUT !!!
VIDEO BLOG DONE for my channel and then - omg - the door went - it was the crisis team doctors as mentioned above !!! - lolololo - I MUST HAVE KNOWN !!! -
I AM A GODDESS !!! THE HOUSE WAS PERFECT - SMELLING BEAUTIFUL AND I WAS UP - SHOWERED - DRESSED - MADE UP - EVERYTHING DONE - AND IT WAS 9AM !!! = PMSL - IM ON A HIGHHHHHHH !!
That lasted till 11am - then I went and made the kids lunchbox's for tomorrow - and lunch for my ex for today !! - I wasn't hungry yup - Fat as anything and Nothing to eat till 5pm this evening - and that's fairly normal - im not usually hungry unless I go out - then BACON SARNIES !!!!!! - YUMM !! Anyways that was me till the kids got home - then Cassia and I made another video blog - ex did dinner that just needed warming through - and then I was kinda sleepy - went upstairs as sound and lights started to flip me out - and the BANG I couldn't sleep - so - went on facebook and blogger and google+ / twitter etc etc - 1am - that's when I went to sleep = a fairy normal - HIGH DAY !!!! Fun Hey !!! xx
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