Thursday 24 September 2015

IM SO TIRED AND I WANNA GO TO BED ( Pituitary Brain Tumour / Imaginative Thoughts ! )

IM SO TIRED AND I WANNA GO TO BED

I didnt have a little drink about an hour ago and it has NOT gone right to my head - 
In Fact - IM T'TOTAL !! ( If you dont get that - then YOU ARE NOTHING TO ME !! ) 
It's a song that i love and so catchy and rather funny cause i dont actually drink and hate Alcohol !!




Show me the way to go home
I'm tired and I want to go to bed
I had a little drink about an hour ago
And it’s gone right to my head
Everywhere I roam
Over land or sea or foam

You can always hear me singing this song
Said show me the way to go home.

( OK - sado now - People may remember it from Jaws ??  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=97RSuv8hroc  ) 





OK OK - I dont know why i went into that - OHHHH YES I DO - IM TIRED - and im trying to keep myself awake before the kids get home from school - Ive done my Twitter ( #AbigailBarry1 ) Google+ ( Abigail Barry - Unique BBW ) Pinterest ( Abigail Barry )  FaceBook - ( Abigail Barry ) and YouTube Channel ( PMSL - Yup you guessed it - Abigail Collin - ohh no - Barry ! ) - Ive also done all the cleaning, Dinner - ( Spanish Chicken tonight - well - thats what im calling it - Its actually Chicken with a mix of fresh yellow / red / Green Peppers - Red Onion and a Bolgnaise Sauce - Kinda italian  guess - ok - Italian Chicken !! 

AND OMG YOU HAVE NEVER SEEN ME JUMP SO DARN HIGH - The video was still playing for the link above - The Jaws Link - and that BLOODY music - dun dun, dun dun, dun dun, dun dun dun dun dun  just came on and I WENT THROUGH THE ROOF - Palpitations and everything !! = That scares the shite out of me that music !! = Every time !!




Ohhh yeah - Dinner - Italian Chicken down - to be had with new baby potatoes = the 'good' ones as requested by Tom - Not that Crap Cheap ones I usually buy !! - BLOODY CHEEK ! = and then = well - thats it- BUT - for me that was fabulous - Hoovered - Cleaned Kittens out four times - OK OK - You get the Jist !! Ive been busy !!

YouTube consisted of one NORMAL Body Positivity Video - Well - OK - it wasnt normal - because i did it on a high - so there is alot of mistakes and laughing and being stupid - BUT - the general voice of authority was their !! there ?? whatever !! = I never get those right - and i cant be bothered to get a dictionary = Just cant remember - I know Their is a person - !! - I think ?! - ohhh WHO GIVES A ...... Got better things to worry about !! 

Body Positivity - ohh yeah - did that and decided it was a GREAT idea to copy Coen at Curvy Shrine - and do a ASMR video ( Autonomous sensory meridian response(ASMR) is a neologism for a perceptual phenomenon characterized as a distinct, pleasurable tingling sensation in the head, scalp, back, or peripheral regions of the body in response to visual, auditory, tactile, olfactory, or cognitive stimuli. ) - although i can never remember what way the letters go - and so kept stopping and just laughing like a loon - so - I started a blooper channel !! = Anyway - I thought it would be nice to start a Asmr video Channel for Body Positivity Poems ... and that is what i did - three poems are on there now !! and about 7 bloopers - and one Body Positivity Video 
( This is me ! =  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rk4dFqYtuqg ) 
- GO ME BUSY TODAY !

SO =- thats why im tired !! 




omg - all that just to explain the title !! 

OK - a tad hyper at the moment - But soo tired - Went to bed at 12.30 Midnight and woke by Del n Rodney On my head at 6am !! ( The Kittens !! ) and have been going ever since !! = Talk Talk Talk Talk Talk - washing - Talk Talk Talk Talk Talk Talk Talk Talk Talk Talk Talk Talk Talk Talk Talk - Mmmm you get the idea - Do keep meaning to ring my friends - esp two of them - Leigh and Adam - But - Everytime i go to ring - I remember something REALLY important and HAVE to do it !! = It's madness !! and then I remember i havnt actually done anything on Pinterest today - so now im thinking bout that - and then im wondering if i should have put those pics of my tummy on Google+ = But - Then I remember my YouTube Video and think I DONT CARE - They are actualy great wholesome !! ( ohhh i like being wholesome !! ) Artistic Pictures and I dont mind if people see a Fat Curvy HUGE but ohhhh so sexy lady - FULLY CLOTHED by expressing herself - ( lmao - and omg Nooooooooooooooooo - I dont mean expresing - expressing - I mean - being herself - although - I dont walk around with my tummy out !! ) PMSL - see - HYPERRRR !! - and its funny = I can get ARMS Videos Leters right - BUT I NEVER GET LMAO, ROTFL OR PMSL wrong - NOW THATS SPOOKY !! 




Now i tried to write that as i thought - so maybe you could see where my head takes me from second to second - and right at that moment i thought ' Takes Me ' and I actually thought of the Faraway Tree !! = Does anyone remember that book as a kid - Fabulous !! = MoonFace and Silky and TinPot Man = OMG Every kid should read that - Now im remembering that mum read " Mouse on a Motorbike " to my brother and I on holiday when I was about 6 - and i didnt understand a word of it- ( Well FFS - Anyones know Mice Dont ride Motorbikes - Their feet are two small ) - UNLESS THEY HAVE ONES SPECIALLY MADE - Now - there - thats how it was done - and going back - I think i have my Their and Theres the right way round then - Making me a Liar saying earlier that i didnt know !! = 

I can actualy go all day like this - No-One here = and actually talk to myself - or have things to do - that have been inspired by stupid other things !! = AND IM NOT ON ANY MEDICATION !!! I havnt had a Diazepam for over three maybe four weeks now - ( lmao - maybe this is the problem ! ) The consultants online say this is most peculiar as Diazepam, is a HIGHLY ADICTIVE drug - and anyone else - taking the amount i was taking - would be totally dependant by now = lol - i can take 17 / 25 in one day - for a few weeks - and then be ok = and just not need it !! - Aparently all goes to show how BIZARRE my head is !!




Is anybody still with me - or am i talking to myself again ! - lmao - ohhh well - im enjoying the company so - each to their own !! Ohhhhhhhhhh How i am going o find pictures to put with this i dont know  because ive not actually said anything interesting - No news or Words of Knowledge - Just WAFFEL !! - lmao - that i do like only Abby's can do !! ;) - Ohhh I feel like Tigger from Winnie the Pooh !! = all bouncy and FUN FUN FUN !! ;) lmao !!

The wonderful thing about Abby's 
Is Abby's are wonderful things 
Their tops are made out of rubber 
Their bottoms are made out of springs 

They’re bouncy, trouncy, flouncy, pouncy 
Fun, fun, fun, fun, FUN! 
But the most wonderful thing about Abby's 
Is I’m the only one 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dJFyz73MRcg




OHHH YES I LIKE THAT - IT HAS A RING TO IT DONT YOU THINK !!! ;) Ohh I bet no-one has ever gone from the Jaws Theme to Tigger in so few words !!

Now - Thursday today - NOTHING on TV - so will maybe watch a Movie - ( Nearly said Video !! ) and something that a 9 year old girl and 12 year old boy and Alan and I will like - Mmmmmmmmm - We had it just Perfect Watching THE FLASH = Everyone liked that = and it was utterly superb - but - now - ITS ONLY GONE AND FINISHED - so we have to wait for the next season !! - Booooo - Have to find something else !! As a Family ( Although a Non-Typical Family as Alan and I are NOT together ! = BUT - are very good friends - and think alot of each other - but - NEVER be a couple again !! LMAO - no i dont say this to remind myself - I SAY THIS TO EXPLAIN TO PEOPLE that women and guys can be friends and Not have sexual relations !!!!! - Its called being a grown up - ohhhhhhh NOW THERE - IVE MUCKED THAT UP - CAUSE ONE THING I MOST DEFINATELY AM NOT - IS A GROWN UP - AND I NEVER WANT TO BE EITHER - !! - Mmmmmm - Ok = Maybe not grown up - Although Alan is grown up enough for both of us - Maybe that wil be it ?? = but we are both PRACTICAL and STREET WISE !! There - thats better !! ) What was i saying - ohh yeah - as a family - we like Mmmmmmmmmm - Adventure - Sci Fi - Sometimes comedy - Anything Marvel / Adam Sandler type stuff !! = and if it is just my 9 year old - then - we watch what SHE WANTS !! - lmao !! Otherwise - My son DOES have an input !! We dont usually !! ;) 

Right - Oli the Hairdresser is going to be here in a minute - Needing a trim - Maybe - I havnt made up my mind yet - as i have just coloured my hair - and i dont want the colour all cut out !! lol - But the EX does want a cut - so all good !! 

And i have kept myself awake for 54Mins - so - from the start to this letter here * - It has taken me 54Mins to write - Is that good or bad ?? I dunno !! = Mind you i was on YouTube looking for those links and was peeking at my phone ( and if truth be know i did go to the loo QUICKLY ! ) OHHH AND I MADE A COFFEE !! - So - Quite a few words a minute i think - Not bad !! NONE OF THEM MEANING ANYTHING - but - Life a bugger hey !! 

So - there are MY THOUGHTS over an Hour - I would actually like honest opinion - Normal - loon - something you'd do or think ?? PMSL - IM A GLUTTEN FOR PUNISHMENT ME !! 

Anyway till next time !!

( Lmao - Has anyone ever blogged about nothing before ?? - I BET IM THE FIRST !! ) 



Monday 14 September 2015

LIES - DECEPTION AND INTRIGUE and a Pituitary Brain Tumour !!

LIES - DECEPTION AND INTRIGUE !!

HAHAHAHA - THAT GOT YOU LOOKING !!!

 
Omg - Now I have to fulfill that title !! ohh ohhh !!! lmao - Such a good catchy title tho - and OMG I CAN DO THIS - !!
 
 
 
Lies !! - OK - for this I have to Tell you about a Post that I put on My Google+ Page - Ohhh maybe easier to just copy and paste it if I can - BEAR WITH ME - don't go anywhere - STAY -
 
OK GOT IT !!
 
HERE WE GO - THIS IS GONNA BE GOOD - GRAB A COWWWWWFFEEEEE AND SIT TIGHT - IT'S A BUMPY RIDE ;)
 
THIS WAS THE TITLE I GAVE TO THE RICKY GERVAIS FAT SHAMING VIDEO -
 
"Omg hysterical, I love Ricky, absolutely, BUT, RICKY, I am Fat because I have a pituitary brain tumour, hypothyroidism and PTSD, NOT BECAUSE OF EATING TO MUCH !!! I'm not offended as so many people DO EAT TOO MUCH, and Your comments are spot on, BUT SPARE A THOUGHT FOR PEOPLE WHO ARE OBESE DUE TO ILLNESS..... NOT AN EXCUSE, FACT"
. then I posted a copy of his video !!! - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l4YZiKbklAE 
 
OK - so - I though I had been nice - not offended - and then this !! -
 
 
 
comments



Commodore Grayum
Sep 5, 2015
Reply+Abigail Barry That's the thing, whenever anyone talks about this issue, people go "OMG you're so offensive, sometimes it isn't their fault!". And they're right that sometimes it isn't. That doesn't change the fact that it almost always is. Sorry for the problems you face personally though, that sucks, and is a different situation entirely. I know a guy who went from being skinny, to morbidly obese, diabetic, and blind, entirely as the result of a brain tumour. As I understand it, he feels ravenously hungry constantly, no matter how much he eats. Sure, he's eating way too much, but I can't claim that I wouldn't do the same if I constantly felt like I was starving.
 
OK - SO THAT WAS A NICE COMMENT - understanding and relevant !! - and I left him a perfectly nice reply - as only I know how ;) !!
 
BUT THEN THIS :
Th3UprightMan
Yesterday 10:05 AM
Reply+Abigail Barry PTSD??? and hypothyroidism do not make you fat. An under-active thyroid causes 5-10 lbs of (water) weight gain at most. The rest is because you stuff too much food down your hole. Cushing's gives you some fat in a weird place, so the body looks strange. You can tell when someone has Cushing's because the rest of their body is normal compared to the fat area. You're either a full-blown liar fatass or a fatass using diseases as an excuse. Saw a lot of you in the hospital and physical rehab.
 
MR RESPONSE TO HIM :
 
Abigail Barry
Yesterday 2:39 PM
Edit
 
+Th3UprightMan - You have just made yourself look an idiot - YOU DONT HAVE TO HAVE CUSHINGS TO HAVE AN ENLARGED PITUITARY AND PITUITARY TUMOUR - My tumour DOES secrete Cortisol and also Prolactin as well - BUT BECAUSE IT IS A TUMOUR THAT COMES AND GOES - IT IS NOT LIFE THREATENING - You can tell when someone has cushings as they have the huge tummy and the moon face and red straie = When you have an enlarged Pit and Pit tumour - the weight is evenly distributed - although my stomach and hips are much bigger - THERE ARE OVER 20 TYPES OF PITUITARY TUMOUR BTW ! -  YOU REALLY NEED TO RESERCH BETTER BEFORE YOU TRY TO TRIP SOMEONE UP - AND ACTUALLY - BE FRIENDLIER AND LESS SARCASTIC - AND YOU WILL BE HAPPIER - I have learned to COPE with my ILLNESS - DIAGNOSED AND ACCREDITED = Have you learnt to come to terms with being a moron and a horrible individual ?? Ohhh and I was up in London at the University college Hospital on tues - Having yet more MRI's and Blood Testing and Spittal tests - and yes I can prove this !  - and I will be back there THIS TUESDAY to see my consultant !! - SO MAYBE I WILL SEE YOU THERE !!!! No point in going to Physical Rehab - AS IT IS MEDICAL AND NOT PHYSICAL - DUMBASS
 
HIS REPLY -
 
 
 
Th3UprightMan
Yesterday 3:40 PM
Reply
Again, I mentioned the one that has the highest chance of showing physical signs that will be confused as fatness. While others are also bad, they are manageable if you have  strong will and discipline. You do not, obviously. It CAN cause weight gain, but it won't... unless you're a shitty eater.
PTSD does NOT make you gain weight. I don't care how you got it. If you decide to eat because of it, that's on you. It has no bearing at all on weight.
Are you retarded? I mentioned physical because that was MY experience. It ties in with you because those people have given up on their body the same way you have, and have made their accidents an excuse, just like you are doing with your alleged disorders.
I'll just continue actually living my life and taking responsibility for my actions, which has given me GREAT results so far. You continue on being the last choice for sub-par men who have consumed enough alcohol to settle for less.
 
Abigail Barry
Yesterday 10:46 PM
Edit
 
I have a fabulous diet, and DONT exercise because when I do it literally shuts my head down, PITUITARY TUMOURS AND HYPO AND PCOS AND PTSD, WHEN SUFFERED TOGETHER ARE DEVASTATING, Thank Christ I am positivity in the extreme and Try to help others with part of my condition, YOU ARE RUDE, UNEDUCATED AND INSUFFERABLE, But that's why your here you have nothing better to do than try to wind up n upset GOOD PEOPLE, ohhhh, I Don't drink, smoke or take any drugs apart from prescribed prescription drugs for the conditions you know NOTHING about.
 
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HE HAS NOT YET REPLIED - BUT - OMG - LIES - HE IS TELLING ME I AM LYING ABOUT MY DIET - AND LITERALLY MY ENTIRE LIFE - AND THE GUY DOESNT KNOW ME - IM UTTERLY FLABBERGASTED !! Why would someone Lie about being ill ?? - lmao - Im not bothered about it - im absolutely FLAMING !!! lmao - as only a Pit Patient can understand !! - This bloke has NO IDEA the difficulties we face in day to day life, and the complexity of the illness - or the arduousness of getting people to believe we are ill and to get a comment like this after YEARS of having people think we are fat and lazy and good for nothing - is utterly DEVISTATING = OK OK - NOT DEVISTATING = but exasperating - ohh I like that - that's a fab word- AND IVE ONLY SPELT IT RIGHT !!! - GO ME !! HOW BLOODY DARE HE - and thing is - its not the first time I have had someone who doesn't know me - and obviously does not come from a medical background try and make light - hahahahahah pardon the pun - of my illness - saying - Loose weight - or go to the gym - Why sit there =  watch TV or read - or STOP SHOUTING - lmao - the list goes on and on - and then I have to come back with a reason as to why I cant or don't do any of these things - and its all so darn irritating - WHY SHOULD I HAVE TO JUSTIFY MY EXISTANCE !!
 
Im so fed up of people saying - " WHY ARE YOU JUST SITTING THERE - WHY DONT YOU READ A BOOK OR WATCH TV - DO SOMETHING " - I happen to 'Just Sit' Because - even tho I look fine from the Outside - Inside - My head has shut down - NOT an excuse - FACT- It has slowed to such a rate that I can just sit - for hours on end - and just .... SIT !! = If I tried to watch TV or read a book - well ( from experience ) It causes massive Headaches behind the eyes - my eyes actually HURT - to the point that I HAVE to shut them ) This used to happen driving too - pmsl - its ok - don't look like that = im not driving anymore ) Then I start crying - no reason - just tears start - then the head starts to go / get tilted from left to fight - and my eyes screw up - its all very bizarre - Ohhhh my speech has gone by this point too - That's when I go to bed - and just lie there - Literally in a darkened - quiet room - lmao - like a headcase !!! BUT - It does help !! - I need ALL STIMULANTS taken away !! Its VERY Odd !! - Ohhhhhhhh - Have I just gone off subject - lmao - I DO THIS !! IM IN A RANT !!! LMAO - I was talking about LYING = and ohhh this just does sort of fall into this category - Because people think im lying to get out of doing stuff - and im just lazy sitting there - BELIEVE YOU ME - ID MUCH RATHER BE HOOVERING than just sitting there - ( And I picked Hoovering as I don't mind that too much - I WOULDNT HAVE SAID IRONING - as I cant iron - apart from the fact that if I lower my head to look at the ironing board, and the movement of my arms  can bring on a 'storm' - I BLOODY HATE IT !!!
For myself I have always bought clothes that don't need ironing - and if they do - I only iron WHEN I HAVE TOO - AND ONLY the parts I CAN SEE !! = well - I don't look at the back of my dress or the backs of my tops do I - So - Whats the point in ironing them ?? ( TRUE ) - also I have been blessed - ( OMG that makes me sound religious - DONT GET ANY FUNNY IDEAS MOTHER ) - with a great Ex and a Fabulous Mutti ( She hates being called Mum - as makes her sound 'common' - TRUE !! ) and They usually do the Ironing for me - Well For the Kids - As I don't usually bother - as I said !
 
OK - onto the next section - Not quite half way there as there are three parts to this Blog - and three does NOT go into two .... Ohhh bugger - yes it does - it goes once - but = ermmm - then there is a bit left over and I don't know where half is in a 3 .... If that makes sence - so - erm - THE NEXT BIT !!
 
 
 

DECEPTION

 
OK - Here im taking you on a journey ( OMG That makes me sound as I am hypnotising you = and I have no idea if I spelt that right - but as it is not underlined I am guessing I have ! - and this is hysterical as I have been to a Hypnotist person once - for smoking - and omg I could NOT stop laughing - I mean - I don't wanna go on a journey with a fat bald bloke I don't know - and I don't want to be sat listening to him talk ' sooooooothingly ' about waves and lapping sunsets - ohhh I don't think there is such a thing as a lapping sunset = but - no - I don't want to be doing that - Opps - off on one again ) OK _ so I WONT TAKE YOU ON A JOURNEY = I will just tell you about me going on Dating websites and the Deception Guys have shown on there - OMG - ITS DISGRACEFUL !! =
I went back on Badoo Just today - and already I have 48 messages to answer ( The below messages are from a whole host of different websites - and not all from the Badoo site ! )  - and I know - most of these guys are married - and just after one thing - I am NOT !! = and got so fed up of it all - I actualy wrote a great big list about me - and what I like and don't like etc etc - I have since gone through this and had to re-write it as APPARENTLY it was too long - lmao !!! -
 
 
 

HERE IS MY BADOO PROFILE

 
Write a little about yourself. Just a paragraph will do.
 
Helloooooo,! I'm fun, honest, open minded, confident, NEVER TAKE MYSELF SERIOUSLY & IM SEXY WITH CURVES !!

NOT HERE FOR PEN FRIENDS, OR SEX CHAT

WANT TO MEET FOR COFFEE, CHAT AND SEE IF THERE IS SPARKS!!!
NO IM NOT GETTING A BLOODY HOTEL AND NO I DONT WANT TO SIT IN YOUR CAR WITH YOU AND LET YOU TOUCH ME - OR VISA VERSA - DO ONE YOU PERV
Why be on here if you don't want to meet and chat?,
If you don't drive, sorrrrry !!

Love Animals, Tattoos, COFFEE, movies, theatre, music, blogging, my own YouTube Channel, COFFEE, Positivity and Friendliness...... So much more to me than meets the eye, DID I MENTION COFFEE ??

NEVER JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS COVER!!

I'm a big kid and laugh at the most ridiculous things. People say I'm totally unique, n that's GREAT I love to be different!! I'm tattooed and non stereotypical !!

Honesty is a massive thing with me - NOT HONEST and you can do one !! = Im totally open ( Ohh should tell you now i have a unicorn called Dave - and yes HE IS REAL ) - Im honest and feisty totally confident with who I am and what I do - and omfg I am such a lovely person !! - LMAO - sometimes - ;) = Then again - I can be a total bitch and talk FAR TOO MUCH, opinionated, sometimes OVER confident, and a tad ( ok ok - maybe VERY could be used here !! ) clingy !! BUT - Only if I like you - otherwise I just delete - I don't even bother to chat to people I don't fancy as it is a waste of their time - and mine - and omg, THATS SOOOO SHALLOW ! = but I do like to be totally honest
- Thing is I do like to bring the best out in people- and I like to help and make them smile and be positive and motivational - and I think the only way you can do is this to be totally upfront and honest with yourself !! - Wow - this is quite good and accurate, god - I amaze myself at times !!

- lmao - I do love to do quizzes - and lmao - have covered 1500 of the questions they have on here - OMG I know !! = Oh I don't - but could have OCD - Or as it should be known CDO - - I sent 8'999 txt messages just LAST MONTH - and had O2 ring me to tell me this was their world record !! - WHEWW WHEWWW GO ME !! = Didn't win anything tho - and yes I did ask !!
OMG See - I cant half go on and on - So I best leave this there - as your probably in a daze now and need slapping out of it !!! ;) !!! Ohhhhhhhhh - NOW PAUSE FOR THOUGHT !!! LOL xx




What I’m doing with my life
Don’t overthink this one; tell us what you’re doing day-to-day.
 
Thinking about Unicorns and Abiland ! - Positivity and motivational stuff for people who have a hard time, although,

 I'm not a pain in the arse grinny person !!

Lol, Have a scarey sounding illness,

Medical Not Mental - !! Just ask - Im not shy - and actually - as you may have guessed - love to chat about myself - lol - mainly cause its sooo darn interesting and BIZARRE ..
Bizarre btw is my most favouritist word EVER !!!

Lol but this is to be conquered not given into! I'm defo a fiesty one!! Ohhhh and no you can't catch what I have !! Lol... Just ask !!
Working on getting illness under control, n meeting people in reality, learning new things n keeping an open mind !!

ON FACEBOOK, TWITTER, BLOGGER, GOOGLE+, PINTEREST, MY YOUTUBE CHANNEL .......... Mmmm - That's it I think !!!




I’m really good at
Go on, brag a little (or a lot). We won’t judge.
 
BEING ME - BEING UNIQUE - SMILING - Having fun, laughing, drinking coffee, having funny and odd thoughts , my UNIQUE indivividuality, animal related stuff, organisation, positivity, psychology, neuropsychological studies ! TALKING !!!, Saving money !!, I kinda like cleaning too - which is really sad- ohh and im great at quizzes - LMAO - ok ok - no - im NOT - but I like to think I am !!! ;)

Ohhhh but be warned, I'm really good at being OTT, IRRATIONAL, maybe a tad clingy , HYPER, SENSITIVE AND PARANOID, OHHHHHHHHH AN IM FAR TOO HONEST FOR MY OWN GOOD. !!!!




Help your potential matches find common interests.
 
I COULD SPEND ALL DAY IN WATERSTONES, IF THEY HAVE A COSTA IN THERE TOO... IM MOVING IN !!
....Book anything unrealistic, Phillip Pullman, and Christopher paolini are favs, but also like autobiographies, and some educational books

Coffee - just love coffee

Movies: OMG So many to chose from - shawshank redemption, die hard,
anything Marvel, love Avengers, fantastic four, that type,
Ben Stiller n Adam Sandler stuff,
not into horror or scarey stuff !!

Theatre : LOVE LES MIS, Calamity Jane, Phantom

Food, ..Pesto !! Italian, Indian, Chinese,
BUT NOTHING IF IT IS LOOKING AT YOU .... Also partial to a good Pick and Mix ;) !!

AND JUST LOVE COFFEE !!

Music = atm im doing compilations on Spotify - I like stuff from Bee Gees to Xfactor winners, Just James, Radiohead, Bon Jovi, Bryan Adams, Music from Les Mis, Elton John, Eric Clapton, Carmina Burana - Anything really...

Have I mentioned coffee ??

TV : DR WHO, HOLBY, TOP GEAR ( J.CLARKSON IS FAB ) BGT, DOCUMENTARIES, But - Im not telly mad - I dont watch TV til about 7pm during the day -  


The six things I could never do without
Think outside the box. Sometimes the little things can say a lot.
 
My kids,
Animals,
Talking,
Laughing,
Friends n family
My phone !

Ohhhh medication!! Be dead without it !!
Decent coffee
Lmao
Rule breaking !!!! Hehehe




I spend a lot of time thinking about
Global warming, lunch, or your next vacation… it’s all fair game.
 
Animals, psychology ie body language, neuroscience, brains, Coffee, Tattoos, YouTube channel, google+, facebook, confidence building, having fun, art, feeling sexy, ohhh rude things - I do spend a lot of time thinking about this ( BUT THATS NOT FOR HERE !! ) - I like making people feel better about themselves, ohhhhh and I think far far too much about David Tennant as Dr Who, quite unhealthy really !!!  

On a typical Friday night I am
Netflix and takeout, or getting your party on — how do you let loose?
 
Decent movie with take out or nibbles n COFFEE !! Lots of chatting n laughing BUT would love to be doing something far more interesting, or rather BE with someone far more interesting, then my Friday night would involve soooooooo much more




Offer a few tips to help matches win you over.

NOT INTO INTERACIAL DATING , NOT RACIST JUST I LOVE WHITE GUYS, JUST LIKE SOME PEOPLE DONT LIKE FAT WOMEN !! SORRY )
YOUR IN KENT - within a few miles of Herne Bay
Your Sexy and Tall !!
You have a wicked sence of humour,
love kids n animals, confident,
HAS TO BE HONEST, OPEN N CARING, but a bit of a cheeky chappie who doesnt mind tattoos too !!
You MUST love a chat and a fiesty confident big sexy woman !!

MUST DRIVE .... AND WANT TO MEET FOR COFFEE

If your shy or not a talker, your probably hate me !!!
 
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See - Im Open and honest ! Here are some FIRST replies I have ACTUALLY had, all from different guys, HERE IN THE UK, and the second one was a guy in Ghana !! = Who's paying the flight ? :
 
" Hey - Are you ok to talk to me I am a black man who wants a big white woman for playtimes "
" Good Evening Madame lovely to see you, I wish to converse on a higher level with you please "  
" Do you Spit or Swallow "
" Do you want to meet for coffee, then get a hotel room after a coffee ? "
" Im married - but bored = do you want to chat " - and then later about 4 comments later -
" How can you keep me entertained " - ERMMMMMM EXCUSE ME ??? PMSL
" Hey " - x 400 !! - Now - I have said I like a chat - and all they can come up with is Hey ??!!
" I like dogs, you like dogs = Lets be dogs together " = YUP SERIOUS
" I will get a hotel room and buy you dinner/wine .. when is a good time for you "
" Can you meet me "
" When you say you don't want a ONS, Do you mean just one night "
" Your sexy " x 400
" Your Married - Im Married - lets f**k " ( NO IM SEPERATED )
" Is your hair natural " - OHHH PERRRLEASE !!!
" How many Tattoo's do you have ? "
" If I call you Mummy - will you call me daddy " ermmm - WHAT ??
" So - Do you just like white men or do you like Black men too ? "
" Your so fat - I love fat women "
" Your lovely and curvy, I want to be your bed " ..... Yeah I didn't get this one either !
" Can I wear your Underwear "
" It doesn't matter if your Black or White ! Im Black can we still meet up for a latte and ..... "
 
That's Just a few - I could go on and on !!! ..., lol - ok - I usually do - but that enough - and I have had thousands of first or second messages asking to see my PRIVATE PICTURES = all of which are of ACTUAL Cats and Beavers - if I receive a request - I send them access - and then delete them !! Well - makes me laugh !!
 
WHERE ARE THE GUYS WHO JUST WANNA COFFEE - AND A CHAT - AND............  I DONT KNOW - MORE COFFEE !! = PMSL - I wont jump into bed with just anyone - and HAVE ACTUALLY SAID SO - So why do men think I will = and try to deceive me into thinking that all you want is coffee !! = when - a few messages in ( From a guy who I thought was nice ! )  - I get - " How big are your Boobs "- or - " Can you send me pictures " - or " Skype " ... FFS ....................................
 
OK - THAT WAS A VARIENT ON DECEPTION - BUT KINDA THERE !!!!
 
 

 
 
LASTLY - AND ERM - 3/4 WAY THERE ???? NO - 3/4 IS THREE OVER FOUR - AND THIS IS OUT OF THREE - SO WOULD BE 3/3 - BUT THEN THAT WOULD MAKE ME FINISHED - AND IM NOT - I HAVE ONE BIT LEFT ..... NOT OF THE CAKE - DONT BE RUDE - OHHHHH - I JUST DONT GET FRACTIONS ! ....
 
LAST BIT

INTRIGUE .........................................

 
 
 
LMAO - OHHHH SHIT - stumped myself here !! = ermmmm - Im intrigued about Unicorns and Abiland and Where the hell I get all my thoughts energy from when my body is so tired and I have only just got up ( it's 5pm ! ) ohhh and now - after watching THE FLASH - ( Which is UTTERLY FABULOUS ) continuously ( excuse spelling ) for the last week - 3 episodes a night - I saw on TV News a Video of a bomb going off - and immediately thought " _ Ohhh THE FLASH - has just run through - it will all be fine " - as I saw a flash of light - That was my first though - ( Opps = Hope no-one was hurt ) - but OMG -



THE FLASH IS SUPERB AND GRIPPING AND EDGE OF SEAT STUFF - FULL OF INTRIGUE = WHEWW WHEWW GO ME I DID IT  !! = AND REVERSE FLASH - OMG OMG - !! AND AAROW TOO - OMG - MEN GALORE - I WANT AAROW - NOT Flash - as Flas's real name is Barry Allan = and my ex is Alan Barry - TRUE = and I COULDNT STAND IT - !! - Of course Alan thinks this is wonderful !!! ;) !! ( OK - It is quite cool !! ) and OMG Who could name a baby Barry !!??? awwwwww ikkle baby Barry = That's just hysterical - SORRY TO ALL YOU BARRY'S OUT THERE- an older Barry is fine - But a younger Barry ?? and Trevor , Baby Trevor ?? see - it just doesn't work ! Sorry - off on one again !! =
BUT BY GOSH I DID IT - !
 
I ROCK !!
 
BACK SOON FOR ANOTHER GRIPING INSTALLMENT OF - ABBY'S LIFE !!!
 
 
 
 


Wednesday 9 September 2015

FAT SHAMING - MY THOUGHTS

 FAT SHAMING -

 
 
There has been  found several new websites sharing details of how to join a campaign, as well as shocking new pages dedicated to tormenting overweight people - a sick practice often referred to as "chubby-baiting" - It's the latest trend for the political correctness lobby. Using the word 'fat', or warning loved ones they are too fat and putting their health in jeopardy, IS NOT NEEDED - individuals know what is happening - and they DO NOT NEED TO BE TOLD - Instead of Teaching them the obvious - How about you reach out to this person - and BE THEIR FRIEND ????
 
WHY IS THE INTERNET ALLOWING THIS ?? WHY CAN THIS NOT BE STOPPED ...
WE ARE ALL HUMAN TOGETHER - AND DONT NEED OR HAVE THE RIGHT TO 'SHAME' OTHERS - WHATEVER THE REASON
 
Comedian ( I personally find her offensive and not in the least funny )  Nicole Arbour made quite the name for herself  this week after she posted a video on YouTube titled "Dear Fat People" which is full of mean-spirited jokes about obesity.
 

In the video, which has already garnered over 18 million views, Arbour rants that fat-shaming was "not a thing" and just made up by overweight people — she even compares it to "the race card."
This 'Woman' has expectedly received a ton of heat for her insensitive jokes, which she disguises as contrarian satire, and has caused some notable names to express their criticism.
My Big Fat Fabulous Life star Whitney Way Thore, who also started the No Body Shame campaign, said in a response video:
 
"Fat-shaming is a thing; it's a really big thing, no pun intended. It is the really nasty spawn of a larger parent problem called body-shaming, which I'm fairly certain everyone on the planet, especially women, has experienced."
 
YouTube star Grace Helbig also felt like she needed to make a video responding to Arbour, in which she highlights her frustrations that Arbour's malicious jokes make her seem like less of a comedian. She says:
 
"To me it looks like you're using a controversial and personal subject to leverage subscribers and attention in a negative way…Comedy can be a really powerful tool, and I wish we could use it more respectfully."
 
 
 
Is it not far far better to have a sense of what is right and wrong, to strive to be a better person and to be a good influence in the world. POSITIVLY .... otherwise there is a danger of getting carried away and unnecessarily imposing one’s standards on other people....

Everyone has a right to decide what’s good for them and the freedom to make mistakes. It’s not usually worth playing the role of teacher, judge, critic or parent in anyone’s life. Freedom allows everyone to focus on their own lives, choices, responsibilities and continual learning.......

You’ll accept more when you watch, listen and learn

It’s premature to judge someone when you don’t know all the facts about why they behave the way they do and what’s really going on in their brain. But the truth is that you can never know all the facts. So it may be wiser to shrug your shoulders and accept the limits of your own understanding.
 
 
 
Steve Miller - a Journalist - goes on to tell us in a lovely article - that 'Fat Shaming' is Positive - and can only help the individual - Help them how exactly Steve - Because that's what you FAT SHAMERS are doing - your aiding the hate, not helping .... its a vicious circle = Yeah Yeah - You may have been fat at one point - BUT YOU be a Fat person - who has no control - AND THEN SHAME THEM - you are then adding to their guilt and adding to the drain on the society and the NHS by making them go on Anti-depressants - to help feel better about themselves = BECAUSE - EVERYONE HAS THE RIGHT TO FEEL OK ABOUT WHO THEY ARE - FAT - THIN - COLOURED - WHATEVER -
 
Everytime a FAT PERSON eats - I can ASSURE you FAT SHAMERS - that they are thinking of what they are doing - and they know they shouldn't and they know it is harmful and they could die - and they will be harming everyone who loves them - BUT THEY CANT STOP - and helping would be far far better than telling them the bleeding obvious - Ask them if they want to go to the gym WITH YOU ... ask them if you BOTH want to go to Weight Watchers - Because Healthy Eating is good for anyone - Ask them if they want to come for a walk with the dog / go to the park with the kids and play football - ask them for dinner - and show them a HEALTHY meal - DONT JUST TELL THEM THEY ARE FAT AND NEED TO STOP EATING AND EXERSIZE - ITS NOT HELPFUL - and trying to get cheap laughs out of another - is plain nasty - Nothing else can be said there ...
 

 
 
I have just received this message from 'someone' who thinks what they are saying to me is helpful - I shall post it in a few sentences as it did go ON AND ON !!!
 
" It's appropriate and reasonable to say that shaming fat people should understanding. The most common excuse is "hypothyroidism" and I see you are using that excuse too -  and it's an excuse because it's some how their condition's fault that if they pic up something unhealthy and consciously eat it, somehow it's not their fault that they have a super low metabolism.
Yeah it's your condition's fault that you decided to eat something unhealthy and you knew of your condition; it's not your fault. Just like it's not your fault that you got cancer because you smoked.
Fat people are disgusting. YOU are disgusting - and you are NOT sexy or pretty or a good advocate for hypothyroidism and fat people or whatever else it is you are trying to do ... Seriously, you have a conscious to decide what and what not to eat, even when you know you have a eating / medical condition, how about instead of eating a lot of sugars and processed foods, eat a lot of vegetables and fruits? "
Mr X - That's what im going to call him !!!
 
 
 
OK - My response to that - PERSONALLY - ( And I would think a lot of people are the same )  I DONT SMOKE - I DONT DRINK - I CANT DRIVE ANYMORE - ( as My condition leaves me with a licence revoke ) I CANT GO OUT ALONE - I CANT GO OUT AT NIGHT - I CANT GO TO BUSY PLACES - Ohhh and that's just the good stuff !! ....
I eat LOADS of Fresh and Frozen ( As Frozen is Just as good as fresh - as it is picked and frozen within hours - so keeping all the nutrients ) FRUIT AND VEGETABLES, I DONT SIT HERE EATING CREAM CAKES AND BISCUITS AND OTHER STUFF THATS BAD FOR YOU ...
In fact - I eat if I do out with someone - Maybe a Bacon Buttie - Because that's my favourite = and I don't have Bacon at home - and then - I wont eat until dinnertime - when I would have a Normal sized portion of something like chilli - or spaghetti - or curry - I don't eat chips !! = lool  - ok ok - I do - But very VERY rarely - I want my kids eating properly - and having their 7 a day - ( Yeah - I know its now 7 and NOT 5 a day !! ) Because - Im actually VERY informed about Nutrition and Health etc !!
My body has gone into Famine Mode due to a Pituitary Brain tumour - and the Hypo and a problem with a gland at the back of my head - ( But - being judgemental - I presume you wont have any idea what im talking about - so I wont even bother ! )
BUT - YES - I EAT Carrot Cake ohhh and Chocolate and the odd packet of Crisps and EVERYTHING that everyone else has - FFS - I cant HAVE to give up ALCOHOL AND CIGARETTES AND DRIVING AND LOUD MUSIC ........
 
 
PLEASE BE A LITTLE UNDERSTANDING - I DONT OVER EAT - AND NEVER HAVE - BUT YES - I EAT STUFF I SHOULDNT - AND WHO THE HELL ARE YOU TO TELL ME THAT I CANT - I HAVE NOTHING ELSE - NO OTHER VICES !!!
 
I CANT LOOSE WEIGHT - I was going to the gym 5 times a week - 2 hours a day for about two years - and lost nothing - even the PT thought I ate elsewhere - I used to do One hour in the gym and then one hour at Aqua - AND I LOVED IT, made loads of friends - everyone was friendly = LOVELY guys to look at !! - BUT - then one day - my head shut down - and I fell off the treadmill, basically blacking out = and since then - I have been told I cannot go to the gym anymore -
 
as they are not insured for my particular illness - and they don't have the resources to keep someone with me at all times = I have since TRIED going back - But got stopped ..... I can go in their for coffee - and wait for my ex and kids to finish in the pool - BUT - I am NOT allowed in their as I am a risk for them ... and for others ... GREAT .... SO - WALKING - OK I cant even walk my dog anymore - ( I used to go to Canine Agility with her - and used to do the jumps myself as well - I LOVED THAT TOO !! ) BUT - now - if I walk to the end of the street my head shuts down - I cant talk - and I walk as though I am drunk - fair enough - BUT - If I carried on - I would pass out - NOT DUE TO BEING TIRED but due to being MENTALLY EXHAUSTED - then I HAVE TO SLEEP  .... My head takes in too much - I cant even mow the lawn - AGAIN - something I used to LOVE to do - Or Cut the bushes back - as if I life my arms above my head - or in fact use my arms - I HAVE A HUGE PAIN AND PRESSURE in my head - and then THAT BRINGS ON A STORM !
 
AND YOUR NOW TAKING AWAY A NORMAL SIZE BAR OF CHOCOLATE - OR A BACON SARNIE - THANKS MATE ...
 
 
 
It is NEVER as it seems - so PLEASE DONT THROW AROUND ACCUSATIONS WITHOUT KNOWING THE TRUTH .....
 
Sarah Jackson, a psychologist at University College London and a researcher for a recent fat-shaming study, states that weight-related teasing and stigmatization have been shown to have negative effects on well-being and can lead to psychological distress, weight shaming also clearly sends a public message that overweight and obese individuals are less deserving of fair treatment and essentially gives the public permission to discriminate against these individuals
Striving to attain these thin standards that the media is imposing is not at all healthy! Prominent media outlets need to be more responsible about the images they promote and counter these images with clear messaging that seeks to empower individuals to healthy lifestyles and not simply seek to shame them into submission
 
 
 
 
Understanding that obesity is a complex area is a valid reason. You don't have to like it. You don't have to do anything but try to understand that the humans you meet ARE HUMAN. Treat people with that respect. That people are on different journeys and in different places. Accept that. Do you want people to accept you for your imperfections, for your journey? That you aren't perfect? Yes? Then do that for other people.